The Little Star That Blinks Blinks

那份感动

2008-11-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

刚刚跳完舞蹈。下个星期就要考试了。
最后一次的考级，最后的几天。
今天老师教我们在考试前再练一次，好让我们又足够的心理准备。
我和hern hern是最后一组（因为有些人的先走）。
我等了超久（因为要一组一组的跳），又被老师叫去按音乐。
7点的课我到9点都还没跳到。后来我便去压腿下腰。
我本想告诉老师我想先和前面几组练一下，可是那时离到我跳以没剩下多少时间。
我无意间让大家都紧张兮兮:) 到了我和hern hern跳时，我就想尽力就好。
让后跳啊跳啊就没力气了>.< 也因为没试过一次连下去的关系，我跳到腿都发软。
跳到后面我根本什么都没想了，就那么跳着。
跳完傣族我都累垮了，差点忘了谢老师。
我转头时老师说：“迪心，你进步好多。长大了，用脑了。跟以前在radin mas时以不一样了。”

你知道那一刻我多么想哭吗？
我多么开心。老师在夸我耶。老师很少夸人的，更少夸我.
6月时老师也曾经说我有进步，不过这次我的感受却不同。
我跟了老师10年了。这句话对我来说是多么的重要。
这是我这10年来的一个总结。
我做到了。我忍住泪，到了厕所才开始哭。
哭的稀里哗啦。就连现在我也快流泪了。
我知道这10年我没白学。那种肯定，对于我来说太重要了。
我为我自己感到骄傲。
很谢谢你邹老师，谢谢！

星期三时我一定会尽力发挥的:)

2008-07-18T21:10:00.002+08:00

these few days i have been staying in school to study. i find that studying in school can be really fun. yesterday, before my timed assesment, grace, jas, liwen and i were playing at the back of the school's premise. its was really an enjoyable moment. i felt so comfortable. we were shouting, running about, laughing out loud, and just being ourselves. how great that is. i thought i had not felt this way for real long. kind of found back myself:)
ps: the sky was seriously pretty in the afternoon. when i went home at 9, the moon was so beautiful, like a ring of rainbow surronding it!

2008-05-13T19:30:00.002+08:00

i feel beaten. i feel so lousy. i dunno wad to so. i feel lopsided. how to do and wad to do. i never feel this lousy before, i thought i will not be beaten so easily but..... it feels so hollow, as if the hole shall nv be filled

mids

2008-05-05T19:06:00.002+08:00

finished chinese paper today, felt good. i like to finish papers that i can very well manage:)
somewhat i think that sec 4 life is rather fun, i get to enjoy most of the times.
i was thinking hard, when olevels are around the corner, will i be struggling to study and trying to memorise all the little details or will i anticipating about the exams. hopefully it will be the latter one.

okay i am left with like alot of papers... eng, amaths p1, chem, physics, his, emaths p2, clit p1, amaths p2, clit p2 and the mcqs for chem and physics.
gosh thats like erm...7 more days of exams. i shall be totally dead after the exams. wahh!

oh i was talking to oli and then we were saying about the million things we will do after mids and olevels. wahha i cant wait for my olevels to be over as soon as possible. actually i want the june holidays to come fast, wanna do some thorough and detail studies. then... hee i shall score like never before. okay i know thats quite crappy, as of i will really go mugging during that period of time. wadsoever, i just wan do remember all the things that i have read to and be able to recall them all during the following papers.

i shall go continue my mugging session, off i go!

lalala

2008-03-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

i always don't know what to put for title. just some rumblings, i guess i don't need one.

well, i didn't go school today, indigestion, thats what my doctor said. whatever. i feel so good not having to go to sch. i got to be so stuck in that buzzing world. everything is of such fast pace, and i have to admit that i can really catch up with it. i hate to think that by the end of the year, my life will be like once again changed. and worst, i am chosing my own fate with a list of scores. how cruel can that be.

i just realised that if i am in school, i will usually under one of the 2 kinds of conditions: slacking or stuck with books. i can never study hard and play hard at the same time. is like either i will be playing so hard that i just detest studying for anything and at last my results just go downhill or i really just sit in front of my studying table and study non-stop, not even leaving the table unless i have to eat or use the toilet. i am such an extreme person.

oh and after the march holiday, whenever there is an off-sch day, i will automatically switch to the holiday mode. i know it is bad, but who cares. i feel good to relax myself a little since i have been starting to study. i know i wanna do well and i can do well....blah,blah,blah. i am so sick of all these sayings. from today onwards i shall just do them and try my very best not to say it anymore. actions should be put in instead of just random thoughts.

off i am going to work on my pretty report slip :)

Morning Dew

2008-03-23T12:06:00.002+08:00

yesterday i went for flag day. well, this time round is rach, zq and i. we went back to the same old place, and of course got sufficient amount of donation long before the state time. somehow i was possesed by a pig and started eating uncontrollably. i ate loads and felt extremely guilty though i danced that afternoon. i din eat dinner coz i was really full. amazing that i could actually starve for like 19 hours till this morning. not exactly starve coz when i went to bed i still feel extremely full.

supposed to be studying, but you know i will just start to wonder round the house.... sometimes i am just such a lazy pig. oh ya, loads of upcoming tests to study on. i think i am going to have a head of white hairs in time to come. ps: love zq and rach. soooo sweet.

arhh.. my mum is chasing me, gotcha fly :)

2008-02-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

i'm left with one final subject - clit.
i dunno n dun wan to know how i did for my cts coz i know i am not acing...
well, i've become much greedier. i am not satisfied with just a alright score, i wan only As.
okay, not just a distinction but A1s.
k call me crazy, insane or dream on,
but i am gonna to get that.
just like today's physics. stupid me, left that 2 mark qn blank when it is so easy.
i din see that until i was about to hand in the paper, like whatever!
k, nvm. wad i wan to say is that i should be very happy if i get like a B3
however, i think i am so careless that i just slipped away from my 1. anyways,
it is just a few marks different. but i am just so dump. like wadever.

Ceasefire

2008-02-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

I am going to sign a treaty of appeasement with all my subjects.

come on! lets be friends, no enemies k? :)

i know, i'm nuts already.

我承认-

2008-02-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

我承认对你已毫无感觉。
我承认有时我太过自负。
我承认在你面前我过于放纵。
更承认始终我最爱自己。

但多少年前我们如此缠绵，
爱的又深，又火热。
当年的承诺早无法兑现，
现在的我们只剩视而不见。

妒嫉，猜疑，愤怒，惶恐。

你那时的英俊潇洒不知消失何处,
而我的貌美自信早已随光飞逝。

我曾爱你，那是不变的事实。
只不过在爱情的赌桌上我不幸输掉一切。

——所以现在，我必须为爱还债，孤单走开。

Magical

2008-02-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

i am so happy. i believe in the love i've gotten from everyone. and i am anticipated about my future!

OH MAN!

2008-01-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

GOSH I AM SO GONNA TURN CRAZY! HOW CAN I ALMOST BREAKDOWN WHEN SCH HAD JUST STARTED!!!!!!!!!

Lost

2008-01-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

i will not say that i understand ur feeling becoz i dun. i dun feel the pain. but i understand ur helplessness. i want u to be strong. stay strong k. pls dun fall apart. i believe that i had really been harsh on u for that u've countered this before. just remember that there is alot alot of things for u to treasure and so many ppl loving u - i love u. pls pull urself together.

fascinations

2008-01-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

well a new year has come by. i was unprepared, but now i guess i am already used to it.

i cant really believe the fact that i am already sec 4.

anyway i know i havent been blogging for ages.

thats because i dun wanna to blog during the holidays. well let everyone know ur life.

i've been doing quite some things during the holidays.

i went back china.

its really nice to be there. there is no such thing as pressure, hws to be completed and ppl nagging at u because they are frustrated with their own things.

i get to see my grandpa. he is my HERO!

love him so much.... i wanna to go back, dun feel like parting with him.

this year is my olevel year. every teacher who comes in into our class on the first 2 days of the sch kept saying that how this year will be like and blah blah blah.

my dear miss ng is change to mdm sia.

gosh, i cant stand this. mdm sia arent bad, just miss ng is too good.

alot ppl are talking abt the schs that they want to get in. so am i.

but i realised that this time round, i dun realli care so much abt the sch that i am going already.

to me, all i wanted to do, is to do well, thats all.

my definition of doing well is to push myself to achieving higher grades that i had not done so, pushing myself to a higher level and just maintain those that i am good at.

i am so just to disappointment that i do not want to be once again disappointed.

so i shall not be too unrealistic. dun even wanna think abt those unachieveable goals.

i've set my targets straight. i will just do all that i am capable of, and i shall be so happy.

today, my class ppl knew their amaths retest result. i dun need to take:) some of them as suppose to drop. some willing some doesnt.

i am happy for those who've see beyond the results. i think it really does not matter whether this subject is gonna to help u achieve another A1 or not taking it means that u are poor in ur results. seriously who cares that much. only those who thinks that grades rule the world.

thats the good thing abt a arts class. we think of wad is practical instead of just mugging to get great scores that makes teacher think highly upon us. i not refering to anything, just pouring my thoughts :)

so i hope everyone will be happy and contented.

i love being alive, to be able to enjoy all this :)

The Power of Love Songs

2007-08-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

i suddenly thought of my trip to japan. i missed that experience. i had not actually tell anyone about that trip so now i shall say a little. at this very moment while i am typing, i am recalling all the great things that i had encountered. i felt so blessed. so blessed to meet up with those great people and live with them for 7 days. alright ya i did sobbed a little just now because i thought that affinity is just so magical.

because of this trip, i knew yiyan, melissa, shannon and rachel. and also because of the trip, i get to get along with mandy daily and starts to really know her. each day there will be alot of really cute jokes and stuff going on and the most important thing is that their breakfasts are just fantastic. i love the kind of liveliness i feel every morning when i wake up. speaking of sleeping, i've really slept well in japan. i enjoyed their beds, big, soft and comfy.

the next thing was that i get to encountered people and things for the first and hopefully never the last time. well met andrew-san, he was a cute guy, funny one, the air steward that we met on the plane and our dearest tour guide leader. i saw the beauty of japan, and how beautiful and meaningful life can be. i know one day i am going to die, one day, this page will expire and one day, all these memories will start to fade. but at this very moment, i want to record down. i do want to share with everyone the fun i had. and one last thing, how blessed i am :)

ps: thanksmandyforthatletter,ireallyreallyloveuloads.remembertoplayhardandshophardinhknextnextweek

happy, more than just happy

2007-08-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

well, i've gotten back a-maths, and apparently i've gotten a A2 for that. i am super delighted. i went to hug miss ong when i saw the result.

it all happened like this.....

miss ong was giving out the papers during a-maths. before that, i asked miss ong in the morning how i did for the a-maths, she say she couldn't remember and i was like "this time i am surely dead". and then when xinglin when to take the paper, i followed up. and then i asked her, did i make it. she kind of paused for a little while, so i was thinking that i might realli had done badly. then she said, i think u've got a A2. but i wasnt actually listening until when i hold on to my paper at stare at the score. i was like jumping up and down and i went to hug miss ong. haha.

i know that was.... but i was really happy at that moment. but the thing is that now i am scared. super scared. i am very afraid that after i've obtained this kind of score, how am i going to maintain? i dun like this seriously, i think i am pretty incapable of keeping my results up. i just hope that end of year i do not drop too much. wad i actually is very afraid of is that since now i did well, i do not want myself to be too obssesed with scores. i dun wan to kind of give myself so much pressure and think about results all the time. and anyway, i dun think that much abt it la.
so wad i guess i will do is to continue wad i use to do, and when end of year comes, i just wanna to be prepare. i dun wanna even care abt whether i score well anot. i just hope that i can put in all my efforts in preparation works and the rest of the things i will let it happen by natural :)

i love schooldays :)

i am happy.

2007-08-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

alright, i am going explain y i am happy. because i have actually scored a A1 for chemistry. believe it or not it is the truth. i know it is hard to imagine. hee. anyway, i passed my physics like finally. anyway when i got back my paper, i had not even had time to look at the results and then mr chew said: "somehow u've finally made it". ha, ya true, finally. i am going to work hard for that. anyway, Amanda did really well. she scored a 33. i am so proud of her. big improvements. and back to the topic, my dearest chem, haha, hahahaha. okay, now i am really very happy. but the thing is i do not have a slightest idea of how am i going to fair to social studies and history. well we will know soon. :)

2007-08-21T21:20:00.001+08:00

i am happy.

Hmmm.

2007-08-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

well, today is such a great day. why did i say so. basically it was because everything that had happened today was so 'fantastico' arhh.. i cannot describe it.
i've gotten back 3 papers today. i did rather not that well for chinese incomparison with other subjects la but i still manage to get a B. u know somehow my chinese is not there anymore.
let me talk about the good things -
for my emaths, i've gotten a A2. can u imagine that. that is like so omgosh.
as in i really did put in alot alot alot alot of hardwork but i did not expect to be so... u know.hee
anyway, i've scorce another A2 for english. that is realli unbelievable.

29 July 2007

2007-07-29T14:15:00.000+08:00

well i know the fact that i havent been posting for like years. i am so sorry. anyway from tomorrow onwards my hell-like will start. i've clit, chem, ss, eng, maths and history test all the way till friday. thanks teachers! anyway, yesterday i had my dance and i taught that it was pretty well, except that i got to constantly go ya jiao le. haix getting older and now splitting needs abit of effort le. hmmm.

well tomorrow is clit test and now i am preparing. i hope that i can score. afterall, i need to make sure i can make it for the common test. omg! wad if i cant. haix, 船到桥头自然直，走一步算一步。

涂涂写写

2007-07-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

涂涂写写，成了一种习惯。从来没有想过自己会写作。那像是做梦一样不真实。小时候听妈妈说过，他曾向往过当记者，虽最后还是放弃了。今天的天气很好，路上的行人忙忙碌碌，从不回头看看，深怕会错过前方的什么。前方有这么多美好的事物吗？有这么多会让我们后悔的事情吗？其实我更怕自己不往回看，怕自己太往前而迷失了方向。人总是很容易就接受变化，因为我们就生活在变化之中。每天都有变化，虽嘴上说赶不上变化，但还是适应下来—这就是人类。

Japan!

2007-06-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

i am so sorry. i know i haven been blogging for like nearly a month.

i am so so so sorry. actually i wanted to blog before i leave singapore but i didnt have the time.

anyway. i love this japan trip. everything was beautiful. and i realli mean it.

it is not like new zealand or austrialia where the nature's beauty is magnificant.

actually, japan is rather a simpe country. i mean kyushu.

pace isnt fast there and u realli dun need to rush through a meal.

i had great breakfast there.

every morning when i wake up, the sunshine will just shore into my room and its beautiful.

i love breakfast, coz they are delicious. and realli loads of great stuff to eat, and i can enjoy that leisure feeling.

there are alot of mountains and rivers and coasts, with shrines and temples. of course we went to museum too. there are too much stuff. i think 7 days later i will share every bits and bites here.

also i get to know new ppl! well this jap clique is great!. and "i'm loving it!"

i shall just post this photo of this great air steward we met on the plane.

great looking!

纯真

2007-05-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

i personally like that song alot. it so calming.
n today it is napfa. i did well! i cant believe my standing board jump was gd.
i love myself and my sch. my mates too :)

2007-05-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

纯真

作词:阿信作曲:阿信

长长的路上我想我们是朋友

如果有期待我想最好是不说

你总是微笑的你总是不开口

世界被你掌握

月亮绕地球地球绕着太阳走

我以为世界是座宁静的宇宙

今晚的天空有一颗流星划过

在预言着什麽

在无声之中你拉起了我的手

我怎麽感觉整个黑夜在震动

耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏

星星在闪烁你怎麽说

你心中一定有座浓雾的湖泊

任凭月光再皎洁照也照不透

你眼中闪烁湖面无边的温柔

那波光在诱惑

在无声之中你拉起了我的手

我怎麽感觉整个黑夜在震动

耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏

星星在闪烁你会怎麽说

你已经有他就不应该再有我

世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑

我想我应该轻轻放开你的手

我却没有力气这麽做

Light

2007-05-12T02:41:00.000+08:00

i am so sorry. i know that i have not been postings for some time. well thats becoz i dun realli have the mood to do so.
now my mid-years are over but i feel that i kinda miss those days. at least i;ve got some targets to work for. how irony life is.
thurs wasnt realli a gd one. u see, i dun think i did clit well enough. its just that i could have been better. i was sad, devastated at that moment.
afterwards i went to cathay to watch spider man 3 with oli.
u know it just works when u watch a movie when u are sad.
becoz it makes u stop thinking. all those intense moments i say, makes me feel like i am on roller coaster. i like that movie, i think it is the best out of all series.
i dun care wad ppl think abt it, i think it is perfectly well and worth 7 bucks.
anyway, i think i did pretty all right for every subject other then clit and so.... life still goes on.

jap's coming. i need to get some cash.
anyway, i think this is the best skin i've ever got. becoz it reflects myself perfectly.
i think i am just like the skin color. :) gd night.

2007-04-29T19:44:00.000+08:00

因为有爱，所以要勇敢。

unconsistant

2007-04-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

hmm, i have not been blogging for quite a long time.
nvm, it doesnt matter. currently, my life is filled with : hws&tests, hws&tests and hws&tests
currently, i am not feeling well at all. see i knew this, whenever i am too stressed, i will get sick.
i think thats becoz my immune system purposely wants me to rest when i've got so much work to complete. esp clit!
on fri the sports day, i've got syf audition, so i dunno wad will be happening, but i believe that i will not stay there too long.
anyway, random fact: I'VE GOT PRAISED BY MY DANCE TEACHER LAST SAT.
unbelieveable. wohooo. i am joing the celebration performance.
oh dear, this july, i've got nafa pipa emsemble's performance. dead meat.

2007-04-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

well apparently, there are alot of tests going on these days.
i am having a very strong sense of feeling that i am not going to be able to cope with that.
but anyway, i need to live under stress, somehow.
mr seow say that we need to start our practice next week.
then i said : okay, but what are we going to do?
seow: prepare for cultural pop lor.
me: wad is the use, hongxuan will be the only one performing right?
rach: yah lor.
seow: then we can start on the 2 years later syf.
-_-. dumb isnt it? i am not saying he is dumb but it is dumb to start now right?
everyone hasnt recover from the saddness and there we are practicing for the next syf.
i am more than speechless!. ahha. see even rach agrees on that.
but it is sad not able to participate anymore. but i must make sure that my juniors dun give me rubbish in the future. i am going to train them straight from the next session. i swear.
since dawn and i will never be there for the future syf, i guess pipa can only be supported by lim yun
after all, i find her pretty talented. (lim yun if u every read this, do love me pls)
so i am goin to 传授他密集 wahaha. so "武打" right.

2007-04-08T18:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday was such a meaningful day. guess wad, nhco went out for a mass gathering.
we planned to have dinner at bugis with wulaoshi. so i head directly to bugis junction after my dance at nafa.
and then elaine called for me and i saw the gang. wulaoshi told me he saw me twice there. i was surprised.
btw, yesterday's gathering was super funny. we ate at pastamania. i order maraina, same as dawn. i find their food of average standard, so unless u are there to have fun with ur friends, dun dine there for food.
i was laughing throughout the whole dinner. laughing non-stop. but that make me feel so true, so real.
it had been long since i had smiled and giggled so much.
then afterwards we went to take group photos and huanglaoshi came.
we played at the fountain and took another couple of photos with the presence of huanglaoshi.
then we got to hang around at bugis street. i reached home at around 10.30.
wohhoo. i love all the outings. and by now i believe wulaoshi had left singapore le.
wish him all the best!

2007-04-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

its a silver ppl. yesh a silver. but it doesnt matter, coz we did realli well.
i know alot ppl is crying. by the time i reach singapore conference hall, everyone is crying nevertheless, we did our best. pls look at the bright side.
the bright side is that we did the best and now we are all so united. thats the most precious thing.
wadever that comes later, it doesnt matter. sec 2 have another chance.
others like me pls dun get disheartened. even yeo praised us. we can always do it the next time in jc.
but i was fairly touched by all of you, realli. even our shou xi cried.( i dun need to name who la).
for the sec 4 i know it is the last time u guys perform. i guess all of u are happy that we put in all of our efforts le. so
JIAYOU AND ALL THE BEST for everything like midyear?! :).

2007-04-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

grace is at my house now.

gold or silver?
lets wait until 6.30pm

LAST DAY

2007-04-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

todae is realli the last day. last day before everything becomes fated.
the practice todae was okay. i think that we've got not much passion during the practice.
i prefer saturday's. tomorrow, will be the syf day. i dun expect us to play up to our best standards.
however, i think we are capable of playing something like sat.
hmm.. todae, 7 schs had gotten gold which includes mayflower, and anglican 2 schs got gold honours which is dunman as expected and cathloic high - liu lao shi's sch. whooo.so dead.
but dun worry, we are smart ppl. as long as we stay calm, gold is simply ours.
also, we worked so hard these few months, therefore we cannot afford to be too nervous that we forget how to play. just remember how the dynamic and the melody shld be like, and then in the evening after the result, we will be celebrating!!!

gold is coming, coming to find NHCO!

i'm left with.

2007-04-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

oh, gosh.
just one more day. hmmm. i'm not feeling nervous.
i'm told that huang laoshi was conducting cheng chung the whole of todae.
wish them gold honours, for i dun wanna fight with them.
we will make it if we want. seriously, all that i am afraid of is that some of us will freak out that day.
that will be very bad. becoz we are all gonna die on the stage.
people, dun panic. dun, i beg u pls.(i am saying that to myself too)

todae, i've got my scoldings from liu lao shi.
i didnt practice the whole week.....
my diploma's coming.......
nopee nope. i should realli pull my socks, or i will suffer heavy losses.
then i went to do my eye check-up and bought my new lens.
all my eye-care equippments are bought! i am happy.

went to queensway with grace - she wants to check the price of her class tee.
i've chosen the pair of shoes that i want.
haahaa. getting it soon
wonderful day. gotta finish my work. bye

busy bees

2007-03-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

I AM BUSY!!
omg, i cannot stand it anymore, i am breaking down.
i cant imagine how 3 April will be,
but now i cant stand this anymore. i am having so much stress daily.
can i cry? but i dun feel like crying.

its coming in 3 days.
its coming in 3 days.
its coming in 3 days.
its coming in 3 days.
its coming in 3 days.
oh yay! i seriously need a break after that.

but, i realli do love co alot now. esp when we are playing up to standards now.
i feel that eagerness among us to score for a gold,
but i am afraid that i will feel sad after the syf, whereby we would be so into it.
morever, since the start of the year, our bonds are strengthened.
thats so precious, i dun want to lose it.
whatsoever, i wanna get GOLD, badly.
(its all becoz that we played well todae, which made me feel that we can realli scored)

living with words

2007-03-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

we have co practices everyday. i am exhausted.
but i want a gold. so badly. because it means everything.
it means that my efforts are put off, and they are worth the price.
i scared. very. there are so many what if(s) in my mind.
what if we cannot perform up to our standard? what if we cannot be satisfied?
worse, what if we get silver?
am i worrying too much? i hope not. pls, god, let us get it. aww
its long since i wanted to achieve something so badly.
that was in p4, when we had our syf. we've got into the top 5 golds.
thats when i was realli into performing.
i've been performing for years since k1. my life is meant for performing.
i like the feeling on stage, be it single or with a group. i'll feel so proud of myself.
i love that, and i wanna to make sure i dun regret then.
I must do my best, becoz i wan a gold so much, so eagerly, so desperately.

白色情人节

2007-03-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

i've not been blogging for a while. so sorry. its all due to the huge amount of work i have to do during the holidays, by that i mean hws, cca and remedials. on sat, we will be going to chong chueng for an interaction section. wohoo, i get to see huirong them. and hongxuan, u will find jessica there. i am looking very forward.

then i will be going for a kbox session on fri. yay!! its been long since i last sang. i think that happen during the sep holidays back last year. which means that its been half a year. time realli flies.
today's co practice realli wasnt smooth. wu lao shi wasnt happy with our performance, and there is little thing that i can do. all i could do and i did was to do my part of playing the piece with the standard he wants. but of course, just me the one couldnt help much.

mummy is gonna to come back on fri!! i miss her. but i miss my grandpa even more. realli wanna go back. shld i give on going to japan and visit him instead? btw today is the valentine's day.
so happy valentine's and enjoy the rest of the precious holidays!

dreaming

2007-03-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

my holidays has started. wohoo.
i dun care, i am gonna to shop, eat and play as much as i can.
mummy went back, leaving daddy, kat and me.
arh. i also need a break. mid year is in 55 days time.

usual

2007-03-03T22:13:00.001+08:00

exams are almost over. life is back to normal. i find that literature ppl realli tend think things in another person's perspective. which means that i am pretty abnormal afterall.

i am scared of butterflies. and today there is one dead butterfly flew into my bowl of noodles.
i am almost scared out of my wits. phew. not a nice experience. nv shld that ever happen.

anyway, i dun i am gonna to fair well in my common tests. my six sense is very accurate.
i need to realli study very hard for my clit, becoz i realli need to do so. i dun wan to mess up my life again. btw, my life is already messed up. u see, i am optimistic, however, i tend to be a bit too "sad" sometimes. i agree. but i am not pessimistic.

these days i felt so old. or so.. erm i dunno, i've lived for 15 years, and 2 years later we will leave sec sch, and we will then left pri sch for 4 years le. ha, i dunno, i am having that kind of feeling again.

小人儿

2007-03-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

i wanna tell u, u shld know who u are - its not that i wanna to be cold to u. we've been friends for 3 year already. but to this point, i find it hard to communicate or share things with u. its either that i am far, or that u are too far away. i dunno. but i think that to keep a distance will make our lifes easier, or at least mine. i'm sorry.

u've been there for me before, but today, i think it is impossible. every since cny, i've started to think. and i had already figure out the ans by today. i dun wanna be the person who is trying to to come up with alot of things to make both of us happy, becoz it is tiring. and in fact, i dun understand u that much as i thought i would have. sad to say that right. haha. lets just not do anything. if god wants us to be great partners like rthe past, we will, or else, maybe we've both got to live on.

i realli want to thank u alot. esp, the pri sch and sec 1 days. thats where we got the best memories. i treasure alot. :) let us both jia you ba!

back to school.

2007-02-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

CNY is over. IT IS OVER.
this simply means that common tests are coming.
wahaha. wad am i gonna to do???
i seriously do not KNOW!
arhhh. i must pull up my socks for clit already,
or else i will need to be prepare to...
nvm. today, i've gotten back physic paper,
and i passed. thats enough already. happy mugging.
-dixin-

everlasting

2007-02-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

alright, today, i went to sentosa for the flower display or something??!!
the weather was really humid. heat waves i'll called that
and i was carry my sister. great exercise. hmm i took some pics of my darling sis.

she realli love to pose. haix

u may wonder y i dun upload any of mine. well, coz i dun wan.

happy new year.

2007-02-18T18:05:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! happy new year.
well i am super happy now..
guess wad, i've finally slept well.
at last after all these days of hardworkss. (well not exactly la)
i've also bought my new year clothes (wohoo)
and ang baos!!!!
ppl dun eat too much hor. i shall update more stuffs later.
dinner, here i come!

2007-02-14T22:36:00.001+08:00

i love friends. coz they realli rawks

can u believe this??

2007-02-13T20:26:00.001+08:00

guess wad i'm doin now. i am studying clit. oh no...
tomorrow there is this test and i am freaked!. (like a mice)
haha. todae's lesson was fun. esp during mr chew's.
he is such a nice and funny guy.haahaa... i like physics!.
and i like kinematics. dun say that i am insane...

however. on thurs there is a physic test.
on kinematics and chapter 1. i am feeling so them stressed.
CNY come come. i need it asap. coz i wanna a good sleep that allow me to wait up
at the time when i wan to, instead of i need to.
these days from mon to sun, i am waking up everyday before 8. even Sun!
so i need to sleep! sleep! sleep!
and tomorrow is valentine's day. too bad i dun have someone to celebrate wiz.
worst still there is clit test after sch and after that is CO. woof.

-dixin-

sch rawks or boos?

2007-02-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

i'm back from clit lessons. todae's lesson was such a drag. omg
can u believe it, the lesson was so damm difficult.
oh no! how how. the test it next week and yet i haven start revising....
haahaa. todae i went to hand in the consent form for Japan.
issac told me that there is no more forms and then i found one for myself later in the noon.
then he said if possible hand in the essay by todae and i was like "todae???"
then Serene Lew came to collect the forms. i gave her the essay and then in the end i filled up the form myself and she called my mum to comfirm.
wohoo. so lucky. my mum has my passport wiz her todae. hee:)
anyway i need to go and make my ic le. oh dear.. my passport photos...

doo doo

2007-02-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

hmm. how shld i start. well tomorrow we will be going to the singapore conference hall.
which is at tanjong pagar. this means that i am gonna to miss MATHS. arhh.
i wanna to listen. 3 periods leh. thats alot. omg.
well i guess i got to realli need to do something abt it.
and we went to the hall to reherse today. how shld i put it. i was bad?
no sound. hmmm wad can i do. i dunno.

anyway. u guys might be pondering wad is chartreuse.
well it is a color. a kind of green that i love alot. hee.

ouchh. but more of touching.

2007-02-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

well apparently as you ppl know, i've sprained - my neck
yesh, my neck. HOW COME? becoz of my sleeping posture
wahaha. i know, u guys are all laughing at me. wawawa.

okay, back to topic.
today, i've gotten loads of present from u guys. thanks so MUCH!
i shall thank - Beidi, Xingling, Wudi, Olivia, Zhi Qing, Ya Wen, Jun Qi, Rachel, Meiling, Ya Jun and Hu Ying
thanks for ur presents. wohooo ~
and also those who wish me happy birthday. thank u so much.
but due to my poor memory, i could not realli remember. SO SORRY
but i am happy. hee hee.

next i shall complain on some nice stuffs.
today i went straight to bukit merah's clinic straight after sch.
i didnt went for co of course. if i went i think i could no longer turn my head le.
u guys know wad? i waited 2hours 15mins. 2hours 15mins.
isnt that scary. i waited till the clinic is gonna to close le. oh dear.
now i am super tired. which means that i will finish my work asap and SLEEP!

ppl, nv try to sprain anywhere especially neck coz the pain is intolerable.
-dixin-

wohoo

2007-01-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

i've had quite a number of post since january.
one month has ended. wow! how fast is that. just a blink of eyes, its feb already.
also, 206 had went on seperated paths for one month.
like the chinese proverb “ 天下没有不散的筵席”we kind of really get use to our current class le.
but then i still miss 206 leh. u guys play hard and work hard.
thats wad that motivates me lor. arhh i miss the days listening to the guys' funny jokes and
the chit chat sessions with my girlfriends.
but the best of all is coming to nan hua.

today's co ended at 4 instead of 3.30 due to the briefing.
haix. we really work very hard le. i mean pipa's group.
we even memorised the score already. but elaine is still not very satisfied.
nvm we shall continue to work very hard.
seriously speaking, getting a gold for syf is realli not difficult.
especially when nanhua has money. not like my pri sch when we are poor.
but in the end radin mas still got gold with honours.
therefore, nhco, we can do it de. it is just a matter of whether u wanna to practice or not.
this is very important. if u dun practice then gd lor, we shall see if it is silver or c.o.p
c.o.p would be nice (alright i am being sarcastic)
lalala.. jia you ba! and work hard for the rest of the 2 months!!!

-dixin-

2007-01-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

岁月匆匆。今天很感伤阿。死亡是着么样的？我会这么想只是因为些刚发生的事。

alright i shall not tok abt sad stuffs. unlike the usual me.
arhh, todae's co ends at 6.30. yeah right 6.30!!
can u imagine that. horrible right. arhh.
but we tok alot there. and idiot hong xuan played that stupid prank on me.

arhh.. my birthday is coming. i shall annouce the date again. i know i very "bu yao lian"
but too bad.. haha.
all i need is a "happy birthday" la. okay?
mine birthday is on 3rd of Feb!

yay!.. coming. anyway, i am happy with my life.
hws' load has lighten. therefore my mood is also better.
see you guys tomorrow,
-dixin-

bright lights.

2007-01-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

these days i had been busy with hws, lessons and cca.
yesterday during the co practice, we managed to tidy up all the notes and reset the fingerings.
u might not know wad i mean, so i shall tell u that fingering is something very very important.
hmm i think i like co alot now. i enjoy alot being able perform.

and then i saw the co costume le. alright ppl like serene, congras, guzheng's one is really beautiful.
ours are alright la. soso. i would realli prefer if it is yellow. do not think of the lemon, another one that is much prettier.

206'06 ppl how are u guys. tell me tell me. i wanna know.
it is sad not being able to be part of 206 le.
but i gotta move on. must make myself happy in my current class.
of course i do like the class la.

and lastly, co is back to the track le.
i am realli happy for that. so therefore ppl, strive hard for GOLD!
happy weekend. and by the way, my birthday is coming.....
3rd FEB wohoo!

loads of love
-dixin-

i AM STRESSED!

2007-01-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

everyday there is so much amount of hw.
i am not superwoman nor zhiqing.
i CANNOT handle this load of papers n books.
oh dear, how am i gonna to survive?

2007-01-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

i finally figure out something.

these days i've been thinking am i too much.

too harsh.

maybe, or else our distance won be so far.

hmmm. how? i dunno. i am bad at such stuffs.

it is really becoz i've pushed u away from me, or is becoz u find me like a stranger.

i've know u for quite some time but somehow if u ask me, i might not really understand u.

we are brought together so closely yet i felt that we are not that close as the past.

its difficult for me to do anything in this manner.

_____________________________________________________________________

arhh. dun care abt me. i am just being emotional.

anyway tomorrow will be the cip day.

i wanna to post some pics to day but i dunno y i cant open it.

arhh nvm i shall just post two first.

2007-01-18T18:57:00.000+08:00

well todae was just like the normal days.
i had co practice plus clit.
and then now i am feeling realli exhausted and i couldnt even say a words.
awww.. y is sec3 life this tiring.
i need to sleep nowdays to be awake the next day in the class room.
but then i still need to do all my hws plus practice my qin and go for dance.
am i crazy?
i haven even watch a single movie nor browse the gv web since sch starts.
ohh dear.

but then seeing friends is really a great thing.
it is just that i dun get to see 206 ppl that often.
i miss them. i know that every 206ers are writing the same thing in their blogs.

i've just thought of something.
since school starts, i have been paying loads and loads of money on files and funds.-_-

-dixin-

datadata...

2007-01-16T19:13:00.001+08:00

lalala. sch is going rather well.
i feel like a p1 student making new friends.
but thats rather nice.
i kinda miss 206. it has been the hippiest and happiest class i;ve been to
ppl in 206 knows each other so well,
and we are.... arhh dunno how to decribe la.
but all of us still needs to move on.

i shall not commend on my new teachers.
but most of them (almost all except for...) are great ones.
miss ong is the miss funny and nice.
mr chew is the mr must make u understand
miss lin is the miss smilely
and miss ng is the miss beautiful.
tata.... i love history.
in fact the subjects i take are all my faves.
thats the best thing of all.

eng is taught by mdm juaidah. i think she's pretty gd:)
chi is taught by lin rong chan, yes the guzheng teacher.
(i like her, she is always being so passionate abt things)
maths is by miss ong, and she is pretty gd in her teaching and makes me understand
(thats very important.)
ss is by miss sathi. i dun think i need to comment on that.
chem is taught by miss chian. i shall say that i love the subject.
physic is taught by mr chew. he is a nice guy. makes u understand y, y, y.
his is taught by miss ng. i love the sub and loves her. i not bisexual. no worryies
its just that really like teachers who is pretty and knows how to teach.
this is known as both visually and mentally equipped.
and clit. it is a very interestin sub. and i think my chi is really gonna to improve.

finally the post have ended. such a long one. oh well gd luck and happy studying ppl.
and foremost jia you 206ers. u guys are the best.
loads of love,
-dixin-

loving sunshine or sinking darkness

2007-01-14T18:21:00.000+08:00

sch had reopened and i am sorry that i have not been blogging.
thats becoz i dun have the time. and dun ask me how is my current class,
because i dunno. everything is happening at such a fast pace.
i couldnt even think of wad happened in this week.
but i know i am pretty happy and i know that i didnt regret my choice.
thats the most important thingy.

i wanna a day break somehow to shop or so. coz since 1st jan i hadnt had the time to do so..
JIA YOU ba ppl. we still have a long journey to go.
loads of love,
-dixin-