Sunday, November 16, 2008
那份感动
刚刚跳完舞蹈。下个星期就要考试了。
最后一次的考级，最后的几天。
今天老师教我们在考试前再练一次，好让我们又足够的心理准备。
我和hern hern是最后一组（因为有些人的先走）。
我等了超久（因为要一组一组的跳），又被老师叫去按音乐。
7点的课我到9点都还没跳到。后来我便去压腿下腰。
我本想告诉老师我想先和前面几组练一下，可是那时离到我跳以没剩下多少时间。
我无意间让大家都紧张兮兮:) 到了我和hern hern跳时，我就想尽力就好。
让后跳啊跳啊就没力气了>.< 也因为没试过一次连下去的关系，我跳到腿都发软。
跳到后面我根本什么都没想了，就那么跳着。
跳完傣族我都累垮了，差点忘了谢老师。
我转头时老师说：“迪心，你进步好多。长大了，用脑了。跟以前在radin mas时以不一样了。”
你知道那一刻我多么想哭吗？
我多么开心。老师在夸我耶。老师很少夸人的，更少夸我.
6月时老师也曾经说我有进步，不过这次我的感受却不同。
我跟了老师10年了。这句话对我来说是多么的重要。
这是我这10年来的一个总结。
我做到了。我忍住泪，到了厕所才开始哭。
哭的稀里哗啦。就连现在我也快流泪了。
我知道这10年我没白学。那种肯定，对于我来说太重要了。
我为我自己感到骄傲。
很谢谢你邹老师，谢谢！
星期三时我一定会尽力发挥的:)
Labels: happily ever after...
Friday, July 18, 2008
these few days i have been staying in school to study. i find that studying in school can be really fun. yesterday, before my timed assesment, grace, jas, liwen and i were playing at the back of the school's premise. its was really an enjoyable moment. i felt so comfortable. we were shouting, running about, laughing out loud, and just being ourselves. how great that is. i thought i had not felt this way for real long. kind of found back myself:)
ps: the sky was seriously pretty in the afternoon. when i went home at 9, the moon was so beautiful, like a ring of rainbow surronding it!
Labels: rumblings`
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i feel beaten. i feel so lousy. i dunno wad to so. i feel lopsided. how to do and wad to do. i never feel this lousy before, i thought i will not be beaten so easily but..... it feels so hollow, as if the hole shall nv be filled
Labels: my deep hallow feelings
Monday, May 5, 2008
mids
finished chinese paper today, felt good. i like to finish papers that i can very well manage:)
somewhat i think that sec 4 life is rather fun, i get to enjoy most of the times.
i was thinking hard, when olevels are around the corner, will i be struggling to study and trying to memorise all the little details or will i anticipating about the exams. hopefully it will be the latter one.
okay i am left with like alot of papers... eng, amaths p1, chem, physics, his, emaths p2, clit p1, amaths p2, clit p2 and the mcqs for chem and physics.
gosh thats like erm...7 more days of exams. i shall be totally dead after the exams. wahh!
oh i was talking to oli and then we were saying about the million things we will do after mids and olevels. wahha i cant wait for my olevels to be over as soon as possible. actually i want the june holidays to come fast, wanna do some thorough and detail studies. then... hee i shall score like never before. okay i know thats quite crappy, as of i will really go mugging during that period of time. wadsoever, i just wan do remember all the things that i have read to and be able to recall them all during the following papers.
i shall go continue my mugging session, off i go!
Labels: rumblings`
Monday, March 24, 2008
lalala
i always don't know what to put for title. just some rumblings, i guess i don't need one.
well, i didn't go school today, indigestion, thats what my doctor said. whatever. i feel so good not having to go to sch. i got to be so stuck in that buzzing world. everything is of such fast pace, and i have to admit that i can really catch up with it. i hate to think that by the end of the year, my life will be like once again changed. and worst, i am chosing my own fate with a list of scores. how cruel can that be.
i just realised that if i am in school, i will usually under one of the 2 kinds of conditions: slacking or stuck with books. i can never study hard and play hard at the same time. is like either i will be playing so hard that i just detest studying for anything and at last my results just go downhill or i really just sit in front of my studying table and study non-stop, not even leaving the table unless i have to eat or use the toilet. i am such an extreme person.
oh and after the march holiday, whenever there is an off-sch day, i will automatically switch to the holiday mode. i know it is bad, but who cares. i feel good to relax myself a little since i have been starting to study. i know i wanna do well and i can do well....blah,blah,blah. i am so sick of all these sayings. from today onwards i shall just do them and try my very best not to say it anymore. actions should be put in instead of just random thoughts.
off i am going to work on my pretty report slip :)
Labels: living in my little world
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Morning Dew
yesterday i went for flag day. well, this time round is rach, zq and i. we went back to the same old place, and of course got sufficient amount of donation long before the state time. somehow i was possesed by a pig and started eating uncontrollably. i ate loads and felt extremely guilty though i danced that afternoon. i din eat dinner coz i was really full. amazing that i could actually starve for like 19 hours till this morning. not exactly starve coz when i went to bed i still feel extremely full.
supposed to be studying, but you know i will just start to wonder round the house.... sometimes i am just such a lazy pig. oh ya, loads of upcoming tests to study on. i think i am going to have a head of white hairs in time to come. ps: love zq and rach. soooo sweet.
arhh.. my mum is chasing me, gotcha fly :)
Labels: happily ever after...
Friday, February 22, 2008
i'm left with one final subject - clit.
i dunno n dun wan to know how i did for my cts coz i know i am not acing...
well, i've become much greedier. i am not satisfied with just a alright score, i wan only As.
okay, not just a distinction but A1s.
k call me crazy, insane or dream on,
but i am gonna to get that.
just like today's physics. stupid me, left that 2 mark qn blank when it is so easy.
i din see that until i was about to hand in the paper, like whatever!
k, nvm. wad i wan to say is that i should be very happy if i get like a B3
however, i think i am so careless that i just slipped away from my 1. anyways,
it is just a few marks different. but i am just so dump. like wadever.
Labels: rumblings`
